The moment my daughter died, I was holding her hand.<\/p>\n
I felt her slip away. I felt something in me shatter.<\/p>\n
For five and a half years I watched bowel cancer steal pieces of her life, her body, her future.<\/p>\n
She was only 40. Her children were only teenagers.<\/p>\n
I remember the weight of Deborah\u2019s hand in mine, growing lighter as her breathing slowed, each exhale a goodbye to the life she had fought so fiercely to keep.<\/p>\n
In that small, quiet room, the machines hummed, but her battle was finally over.<\/p>\n
I whispered that it was all right to let go, even though every part of me wanted to scream for her to stay.<\/p>\n
Now, I watch Hugo and Eloise navigate a world that no longer has their mother in it, and I see Deborah in every brave smile they force, every tear they try to hide.<\/p>\n
I tell them their mum did not lose; she endured. She turned pain into purpose, fear into fierce love.<\/p>\n
I brought her into this world and held her as she left it, and in that circle of life and loss, I found a different kind of strength: to keep her story alive.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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